Thursday, September 30, 2004

Love Thy Family: Corinthians 14:654

Is it weird that I love my in-laws the way I love my very own family? I love them like they are my family, not my family by law.

In a week, there is going to be an In-Law Family Reunion! Not the "invite the whole gang" type of reunion, but the oh-so-special kind where only the most important people are invited. I am so very excited. We are going to traipse around the town holding hands and reuniting. I just know it. There will be martinis to drink, and food to eat, and of course the laughs. Ah, the laughs.

Strawberry Fields Forever.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Change Clothes

My blog has a new look! I figured since I am getting a new look, and a new outlook, my blog should too! What do you think? On to more depressing things...(Does that contradict my new look? oh well.)

I am completely paranoid. I think I have stopped losing weight. I don't know how I have come to this conclusion, but I have.

Today I am wearing the pants that I used to wear when I was 9 pounds heavier. Why do they still fit me? I put them on this morning hoping to get a boost in confidence because they were going to be so big. Not so said the brown Gap pants. I am going to button perfectly over your fat ass. Needless to say, I am wearing them today as a reminder to myself that I have a long way to go.

In other news, I have a new weight loss buddy. She is OneBadAppple and I love her dearly. I only hope I can help her on her weight loss journey.

In keeping with tradition, I have decided to add another two week promise to focus on for the next 14 days. Stretching. I hear stretching is good for you, no? We shall see!

Saturday, September 25, 2004

ElevenToGo

Today was the day! Weigh in day. I got right up out of bed and went straight into the bathroom. I stripped off everything I had on me just is case and stepped on... there it was, proof right in front of my eyes that I have lost more weight! I was down 4 pounds!! But the most exciting part was not that I lost 4 pounds, but that the digital fat-O-meter went down from the little plus to the regular O! Let me give you a visual:

- O + ++

This is the scale that tells you how much body fat you have, and before today my scale was telling me I was a plusser, but not anymore, yay! I also know that since I have been diligently working out, that I have probably lost more than 4 pounds of fat, and gained a few pounds of muscle. Today is definitely a good day for me. If I continue to lose about 2 pounds per week, I will be ecstatic. I know that loosing it slowly and healthily will help me keep it off forever.

I know I have changed my mindset when it comes to eating. The license I used to have to eat bad all weekend has expired. So has the one that gave me the ticket to go back to my old ways after reaching my goals. Not this time! I proclaim it loud and proud that I am no longer on a diet! It's a plan, silly. :)

-ElevenToGo

Friday, September 24, 2004

Pictures Don't Lie

I walked into my office this morning, and found quite an unpleasant surprise. A picture of me. It was a picture of me from my company picnic only 2 weeks ago, and let me tell you, I LOOKED OBESE IN THE PICTURE! I wanted to cry! I mean, that was the day I found out I had lost 5 pounds. So what did I look like the week before that picture was taken!?!?

This should be a source of inspiration for me, but instead it's a source of fear. What if I get on that scale tomorrow and it hasn't budged a pound? What if I still look like that girl in the picture? I am embarrassed of myself.

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Update Ya'll

I know you have all been on the edge of your seat wondering if I have been sticking to my new rules! And the answer is... sorta! I have been doing exceptionally well at the drinking water rule. I pee so often I wish there was a toilet in my office!

On the exercise promise I have been doing equally as well. Last week I got in my 5 times, and this week time number 1 starts tonight. I haven't had any more cookies from the break room FYI, but I have had low carb candy (as you may have heard about in my previous post.) The last area that I have only done so-so at, is not eating after 7 o'clock! Most of the time it's because by time we get home from the gym and make dinner it's late.

The last thing I would like to add today, is how much better I have been feeling lately. I no longer feel like a sausage stuffed into my pants,or like people are wondering how I got so fat. Although I still have a ways to go until my goal, I feel like I am on my way to a healthier lifestyle...and to a much nicer ass. Thank you.

Monday, September 20, 2004

A Binge is Still A Binge

Oh Bla Di, Oh Bla Da. My cat has a broken arm. In fact, she carries around a stumpy cast all day and lately has been learning to walk and even run with it quite well. Unfortunately, she has also learned how to use it like a baseball bat, and swings it against the bedroom door every night. The loud bang, bang, bang to an untrained ear might be confused as an armed robber. But we know that its just an annoying ass Jilley Cat trying to get it so we will pet her.

Where is this story going you may ask? Well just hold on one minute and let me get there. I think all that banging and running with the cast somehow knocked something loose! Jill saw an opportunity and ran with it so to speak. She spend all day yesterday chewing at the cast until it was loose enough that she could break free! Do you know what popped out of that cast? A tiny little, scrawny, chicken bone arm with matted and missing fur that looked like it was about to break at any second! Oh no! To make matters worse, my pristinely clean kitty took this as an opportunity to lick, lick, lick as feverishly as she could at the matted fur to make it bea-ti-ful again.

We hurriedly put her in her cat carrier to try and restrict her movement when we realized that this was the carrier that she can break out of. She literally pushes her nose against the netting so hard that she pops through! This would not do. We then attempted to drill air holes in a little box we thought we could keep her in overnight. As we placed her in the box, we realized how inhumane this proposition was. I felt like she was a rat that we were waiting to feed to the snake until morning. Now what the hell are we going to do? As a last resort, Sansjob had to run to Wal-Mart at 10 o'clock at night (that's a whole other story) and buy a new cat carrier to hold her in until the vet opened in the morning.

This is where the binge comes into play. Now you might be thinking of a normal binge like eating 3 large Costco muffins in one day, or eating lots of cookies and chips and brownies. No! This was no ordinary binge, in fact I hardly consumed much food at all. I had four pieces of chocolate. But again, this was no ORDINARY chocolate. It was low carb (devil)chocolate. One piece is usually all the stomach can handle, and boy was I paying for it this morning. Actually, my intestines and husband were paying for it. If anyone has ever had low-carb candy they know how gassy it makes you, and I am no exception! In fact, I am still paying for it now and praying no one walks into my office for at least 30 seconds....

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Why You Should Drink Water

This article convinced me to drink more water: You should too.

Don't roll your eyes! The potion for losing that excess body fat is all around you. It covers two thirds of the planet. If you eat right and exercise at the intensity, frequency and duration proper for you, but still can't get rid of a little paunch here and there, you're probably just not drinking enough water.

If you can't seem to get that weight off, try drowning your sorrows in nature's magical weight-loss mineral. It works, and here's why:"What on Earth is 'metabolism', anyway?" People use the term all the time,but ask them what it means and you'll get all kinds of answers. Merriam Webster defines it as, "The process by which a substance is handled in the body." A little vague, but that's really all it means.

There are many forms of metabolism going on in your body right now, but the one everyone is talking about it the metabolism of fat. This is actually something that the liver does when it converts stored fat to energy. The liver has other functions, but this is one of its main jobs. Unfortunately, another of the liver's duties is to pick up the slack for the kidneys, which need plenty of water to work properly. If the kidneys are water-deprived, the liver has to do their work along with its own, lowering its total productivity. It then can't metabolize fat as quickly or efficiently as it could when the kidneys were pulling their own weight. If you allow this to happen, not only are you being unfair to your liver, but you're also setting yourself up to store fat.

"I've tried it and I couldn't stand it!" The problem is that, though many decide to increase their water intake, very few stick with it. It's understandable. During the first few days of drinking more water than your body is accustomed to, you're running to the bathroom constantly. This can be very discouraging, and it can certainly interfere with an otherwise normal day at work. It seems that the water is coming out just as fast as it's going in, and many people decide that their new hydration habit is fruitless.

Do take heed , though. What is really happening is that your body is flushing itself of the water it has been storing throughout all those years of "survival mode". It takes a while, but this is a beautiful thing happening to you. As you continue to give your body all the water it could ask for, it gets rid of what it doesn't need. It gets rid of the water it was holding onto in your ankles and your hips and thighs, maybe even around your belly. You are excreting much more than you realize. Your body figures it doesn't need to save these stores anymore; it's trusting that the water will keep coming, and if it does, eventually, the flushing (of both the body and the potty) will cease, allowing the human to return to a normal life. It's true. This is called the "breakthrough point."

One recent finding, as irresponsible as it may be, that caffeine increases the body's fat-burning potential has many people loading up on coffee before going to the gym. This finding may hold some degree of truth in it, but caffeine is, in essence, a diuretic, and diuretics dehydrate. Caffeine may increase the heart rate, causing a few more calories to be burned, but this is at the expense of the muscles, which need water to function properly. This isn't doing your heart any favors, either. It's already working hard enough during your workout. Never mix caffeine and exercise. In fact, your best bet is to stay away from caffeine all together. It's a big bully that pushes your friend water out of your system.

Water is the best beauty treatment. You've heard this since high school, and it's true. Water will do wonders for your looks! It flushes out impurities in your skin, leaving you with a clear, glowing complexion. It also makes your skin look younger. Skin that is becoming saggy, either due to aging or weight loss, plumps up very nicely when the skin cells are hydrated. In addition, it improves muscle tone. You can lift weights until you're blue in the face, but if your muscles are suffering from a drought, you won't notice a pleasant difference in your appearance. Muscles that have all the water they need contract more easily, making your workout more effective, and you'll look much nicer than if you had flabby muscles under sagging
skin.

"Eight glasses a day? Are you kidding?!" It's really not that much. Eight 8-ounce glasses amount to about two quarts of water. This is okay for the average person, but if you're overweight, you should drink another eight ounces for every 25 pounds of excess weight you carry. You should also up this if you live in a hot climate or exercise very intensely. This water consumption should be spread out throughout the day. It's not healthy at all to drink too much water at one time. Try to pick three or four times a day when you can have a big glass of water, and then sip in between. Don't let yourself get thirsty. If you feel thirsty, you're already becoming dehydrated. Drink when you're not thirsty yet.

Do you think water is yucky? Drinking other fluids will certainly help hydrate your body, but the extra calories, sugar, additives and whatever else aren't what you need. Try a slice of lemon or lime in the glass, or if you really think you hate water, try a flavored water. Just make sure you read the labels. Remember that you're going to be consuming a lot of this fluid. It's probably a good idea to stop drinking water a good three hours before you go to bed. You know why.

"How cold should it be?" This is debatable. Most experts lean toward cold water, because the stomach absorbs it more quickly. There is also some evidence that cold water might enhance fat burning. On the other hand, warmer water is easier to drink in large quantities, and you might drink more of it without even realizing it. Do whatever suits you, here. Just drink it!

When you drink all the water you need, you will very quickly notice a decrease in your appetite, possibly even on the first day! If you're serious about becoming leaner and healthier, drinking water is an absolute must. If you're doing everything else right and still not seeing results, this might just what's missing.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

A New Day Has Come

Goooooood Morning Sacramento! Today is a good morning. It is a brand new start to a new day without cookies and brownies! My husband made me a wonderful breakfast to start the day and today is our 4 month wedding anniversary. I suppose 4 months is just a tiny itty bitty marker in our lives together but it feels good. This morning we had a spoon session that all other spoon sessions will be envious of for a long time. It definitely was a great way to start the day.

On other fronts, I have been keeping my promise of working out. It feels so good to have a great workout at the gym. I have been doing 35 minutes of cardio and today I am going to try and bump it up to 40. Wish me luck.

Monday, September 13, 2004

Another Day Another Struggle

I feel like I am back to square one. I will not divulge the entire reason why, but the point is that I feel like I am. I don't understand why I get these urges for yummy treats and then how my mind just collapses and lets me eat them. I am still committed to my two week promise for working out, but I can't let myself eat bad. I guess I just need more structure and more rules for myself for now. Starting at this moment I am now putting into place these rules for the remainder of my two weeks:

1. No fucking cookies from the break room
2. Keep up the good work with the water
3. Work out 5 times a week
4. No low sugar candy
5. No eating after 7 PM (this is going to be the hardest)

Hopefully my status is still... FifteenToGo

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Fifteen to Go

Today was the day. I weighed myself, and I suppose I should be feeling happy. I lost 5 pounds. I am not feeling that overjoyed for some reason. I don't know what I expected to happen, I guess mabye lose seven? Oh well. Actually, forget that. I am happy. I did lose 5 pounds. I I feel much healthier and have much more energy. I also have been drinking uuberous amounts of water, so my body is happy too. Sometime I feel like Anj, having to run to the bathroom all the time but that just means we are happy and healthy!

I am starting a new two week commitment today. Since I am starting to get this healthy eating thing down, I figure I'll commit to exercising 4 times a week for the next two weeks. That can't be so bad! That means there are 3 days a week where I can still be lazy, yes. In Summary, good for me, I lost 5 pounds! I guess I can start signing my blog...

-FifteenToGo

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Cheater

Fuck. Yes, I said Fuck. I say Fuck because I just Fucked up. I went to a nice lunch and ate a piece of bread with oil and vinegar... stayed strong through the meal, and then their was a piece of Devil Cheesecake put in front of me. It had strawberries and chocolate sauce on it with a ghram cracker crust! Oooh, It was so hard to resist. So hard to resist that I couldn't. I ate the entire ghram cracker crust right off that sucker, and all the strawberries too! I at least had the gumption to bring home the rest of the slice for my hubby.

I am so mad at myself right now. I think I need to punish myself for my actions! I am not eating dinner tonight! I don't need
it. And I will go to the gym and work out EXTRA hard tonight. I promise.

Damn Thing

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Blob

Today I am feeling like a fat blob. Yesterday I was excited to get on the
scale, now I am scared! What if it hasn't budged a pound? What if I have
been eating healthy and peeing on sticks, and working out and nothing has
changed? Does that mean I will have to feel this fat for the rest of my
life. Please God NO. Since I am feeling so bad this morning, I will write
a list of thing I should be grateful for.

1. My totally hot and wonderful husband
2. My family, and In-Laws
3. Jack and Jilley-os
4. Diamond rings
5. My husband again.



Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Smell the Cookie

In only 3 more days, the fateful day will be here. I will be stepping onto
the scale for the first time in 2 weeks. It has been so hard to abstain
from scale stepping. I am so used to getting up in the morning and looking
to see how much I weigh, it was a hard habit to break. From not being an
over-weigher the past few weeks, I have learned that it is not important to
know how much you weight every day. It's much better to gauge it based on
how you feel and how your clothes fit. I am happy to report, my clothes are
fitting much better. I am also able to control my carb cravings much better
now. Instead of eating the cookie, I just smell the cookie! Smelling the
cookie makes me almost feel as if I am chewing it and swallowing a glass of
milk right after. Mmmmm.....

In other news, I will be going to Connecticut for 2 weeks this Sunday. I am
not looking forward to being away from my hubby at all. I can san say that
I plan on sticking to plan 100%. I am even going to work out at the hotel
gym! When I get back though, I was promised a Sushi dinner to reward me for
all of my hard work. Can I get a hell yeah?

Friday, September 03, 2004

Eggs are NOT yum

Can I just add a side note today? I hate eggs. I hate them to the point
where if I am eating them plain I want to gag. They just taste nasty to me.
Now, there is an exception to this rule. If the eggs are put on top of a
bagel, or some other piece of carbolicious goodness, they are great. Is
that so hard to understand? Some people in my life just don't get it. But
doesn't it make sense that someone can not like a plain tomato but they
enjoy it on a hamburger? Or would rather not eat a hunk of Swiss cheese but
Swiss is their favorite on a cranberry and turkey sandwich?! I am just
saying, don't player hate on me for not enjoying eggs. It's not that big of
a deal so stop saying it is. Thank you.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Glowing Purple Stick

Hello Blog. I am happy to report that I am doing awesome. I am forbidding
myself to get on the scale untill next Friday when the two week promise is
up, and it it so hard! I just neeeeeeed to know if I am losing any weight.
Actually, I know I am losing weight, the glowing purple stick told me so. I
bought these ketone strips that detect a certain enzyme in your urine if you
are burning fat, you stick it in your pee and then out it up to a meter to
tell you how much, if any, you are burning. I am happy to report that mine
was glowing like a radioactive fat stick. Yay. There is nothing like a
little motivation to keep me eating right.

My next challenge is going to be staying motivated going to the gym. It's
not my most favorite place to be unless I get to watch Access Hollywood
while I am on the treadmill..... Anyways. Peace out.