So Far So Good

Yay! This is the first time i get to report that I had a great couple of days. I am making good on my two week promise and I am so proud of myself. Let me just say that I went to the State Faire and only had a bite of the bad-for-you food! The fair was so much fun though, we went on some crazy rides and it was so much fun to see my husband who has never been to a carnival. His eyes lit up like a little kid and it made me so happy. Not that he was the only was who was excited though, I was jumping up and down like a kid myself! The lesson to be learned here today from the fair was that I still had tons of fun and didnt need to eat an entire fried snickers to be happy :) Just being with my love was fun enough.

A Two Week Promise

Starting today, I am making a two week promise to myself. I thought about it yesterday and this morning in the shower. For two weeks, I will eat perfectly healthy and not cheat even one time. Two weeks is only 14 days, and I think I can do anything for 14 days. If after the 14 days its not working, I will try something else.

For these two weeks I am only making a commitment about food. After these two weeks are over, maybe I'll start another two week commitment with food and exercise. But we shall see, I am only committing to two weeks here. (And by the way, there are doughnuts in the break room again.) This time I am not even eating one bite, not even one little taste because then my devil horns will come out and force me to eat a whole one. So hopefully after this two week promise, TwentyToGo will
be more like NineteenToGo.

I'll keep you posted.

My First Real Day

Alright, so I've been dragging my feet now on this here diet for about 2 months. I gained about 10 pounds while I was living in a hotel room for a month eating out three times a day and helping myself to the M&M's in the office. I knew I was gaining weight, I could feel it. I felt so full all the time but I was addicted to Quiznos! You would think after eating it almost every day for a month straight I would be sick if it, but my mouth still waters every time I think of the toasty bread and the honey mustard dressing.

Anyways, I figured I would lose the weight as soon as I got back to Sac and would be living at home again eating like a normal girl. It turns out my "normal girl" eating helped me gain another 10 pounds in the past 6 weeks. That's almost 2 pounds a week! Sick. I am now at the point where I only have 2 pair of pants that fit me! That poses a problem when there are seven days in a week. And its not only pants that don't fit me either. My shirts are too tight and I feel like a sausage stuffed into her clothes every day.

It is now clear to me that I have to be on a diet. And not just a ill try to eat better diet, but a full fledged stop eating you fat ass diet. I've only been on it one day and I am already feeling sorry for myself. Why do I love eating yummy things so much? I now know that I am going to struggle with my weight for the rest of my life. Its a sad but true fact. I will never be one of those people that can eat whatever they want. So for now, I am going to get used the idea of being on a diet. I'll let you know how it goes.

There are DOUGHNUTS in the breakroom.

As I sit here in my pants that are too tight, drinking my second glass of water for the day- thinking about how I am going to eat healthy today, someone excitedly announces that there are doughnuts in the breakroom.

Is this some sort of mean joke? WTF? How can I be expected to sit here watching everyone else enjoy a doughnut while I sip water. I can't, its not fair. So I made myself a deal- go get the SMALLEST doughnut. So I did. And as I sit here eating it, I'm feeling guilty. Now I make myself a new deal- Just eat the chocolate off the top and throw the rest away. I did that too. Now I know there is a doughnut sitting in my trash can and that haunts me too.

Man this is going to be a loooong TwentyToGo.

New Rules

My first post!